MyDailyDiarIEs

i hate myself...

mayb i'm not a good enough to be a gd friends 4 evryone...

but what can say i already tried but ??

GOD please help me...

2 show which way should i go..i'll try 2 be perfect 4 everyone's that i love...

even i know nobody can be perfect in this world...


because we just ordinary people n we're same

i tried to be perfect 4 them...

i tried 2 be a good listener 4 them n u..

i tried 2 be a good adviser 4 them n u..

i tried 2 be a good friends 4 them n u

i tried 2 be a good frenz 4 them..

i tried 2 be evrything 4 them,



i realize it was a old me...

but that is only the old me

i know n realized that now i'm change n i became a

selfish person

egoistic

no more understand feelings of others...


but i want u 2 know something that i really love all of u..

especially u.... environment that was changing me n i'm so sory..

I will try to change and be myself....

do not hate me, please please....


y this thing happen 2 me...

y...

i try to be strong but the reality is i'm a weak person...

i try to be a perfect friends for them but i realized that i'm not eligible to be a good friends for them....


i'm so sory...

please accept me n help me to find myself...


i'm sory if i judge only from some of your words that make

me feel down, stress n watever ?/

i do not know why i suddenly feel like there is gap in our relationship

but if i make u hurts i'm so sory...

i do not mean to make u hurt...

all my fault ... my fault ... i'm a offender..


i'm suckssssssssssss....


argggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh...........

damn...
what happen 2 me...
but everthng dat i do or ?? i have my own reason...
why people cant understand me...

i ever say this...
1) its easy to heard but its hard to share....
2) its easy laugh together but inside nobody knows...
3) ???

people just see the smile, laugh, n ?? but inside they never knows n see a pain, hurt , crying , and wtf....